Our lives are a search for meaning, fulfillment, and even for pleasure, and this in fact is our search for God. Fr. Rolheiser writes that by nature, we search for meaning, love, a soulmate, friendship, emotional connection, sexual fulfillment, significance, recognition, knowledge, creativity, play, humor, and pleasure. However, we tend not to see these pursuits as searching for God. In pursuing these things, we rarely, if ever, see them in any conscious way as our way of searching for God. In our minds, we are simply looking for happiness, meaning, fulfillment, and pleasure, and our search for God is something we need to do in another way, more consciously, through some explicit religious practices. St. Augustine struggled with exactly this. Reading his confession, we tend to focus on the first part of it, namely, his realization that God was inside of him all the while but that he was not inside himself. This is a perennial struggle for us, too. Less evident in this confession and something that is also a perennial struggle for us is his recognition that for all those years, while he was searching for life in the world, a search he generally understood as having nothing to do with God, he was searching for God. What he was looking for in all those worldly things and pleasures was, in fact, the person of God. Given this reality, his confession might be recast this way: Late, late, have I loved you because I was outside of myself while all the while you were inside me, but I wasn’t home, and I had no idea it was you I was looking for in the world. I never connected that search to you. In my mind, I was not looking for you; I was looking for what would bring me meaning, love, significance, sexual fulfillment, knowledge, pleasure, and a prestigious career. I never connected my longing for these things with my longing for you. I had no idea that everything I was chasing, all those things I was lonely for, were already inside me, in you. Late, late, have I understood that. Late, late, have I learned that what I am so deeply hungry and lonely for is inside you. Everything I am lonely for is inside you, and you are inside me. Late, late, have I realized this. Our whole life is simply a search to respond to that divine madness inside us, a madness Christians identify with the infinite yearnings of the soul, a yearning for our God.