
Have you ever had to wait in line to get into a building, have your bags checked, or hope that the car lane that was closed in front of you would open back up? We all have had an experience like this, and what I find interesting is its relation to our reflection verse, which is the nature of generosity and how we use it versus how God uses it. Suppose after waiting for a substantial period of time, and just as you are getting closer to the opening that will allow you to finally proceed, someone comes along and opens another lane, but for people who have just arrived. You still got your turn, but something inside of you feels slighted and a little angry as you internally say to yourself: “That wasn’t fair! I’ve been waiting for forty minutes, and they got through this mess at the same time as I did!” You had been patiently waiting, but those who arrived later didn’t have to wait at all. While you intellectually know that you hadn’t been treated unfairly, you still were bothered that someone had been more fortunate than you had been. Fr. Ron Rolheiser, writing about a similar experience, noted that these types of encounters in life teach us something beyond the fact that our hearts aren’t always huge and generous. He went on to say, “It helped me understand something about Jesus’ parable concerning the workers who came at the 11th hour and received the same wages as those who’d worked all day and what is meant by the challenge that is given to those who grumbled about the unfairness of this. ‘Are you envious because I’m generous? Are we jealous because God is generous? Does it bother us when others are given unmerited gifts and forgiveness?’ You bet! Ultimately, that sense of injustice, of envy that someone else caught a break is a huge stumbling block to our happiness. Why? Because something in us reacts negatively when it seems that life is not making others pay the same dues as we are paying. The desire for strict justice blocks our capacity for forgiveness and thereby prevents us from entering heaven, where God, like the Father of the Prodigal Son, embraces and forgives without demanding a pound of flesh for a pound of sin. We know we need God’s mercy, but if grace is true for us, it has to be true for everyone; if forgiveness is given to us, it must be given to everybody; and if God does not avenge our misdeeds, God must not avenge the misdeeds of others either. Such is the logic of grace, and such is the love of the God to whom we must attune ourselves. Happiness is not about vengeance, but about forgiveness; not about vindication, but about unmerited embrace; and not about capital punishment, but about living beyond even murder.” God leaves us free. So whenever someone gets something we don’t think they deserve, we must accept that we’re still a long way from understanding and accepting the kingdom of God.